My Soul Has Wings
My soul has wings,
and I can fly,
fly like a butterfly.
Dancing in the light
of God's love
I am free!
Set to music
poem and music by Lorena Johnson/Cami
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Monday, June 6, 2011
Reverie
Reverie
Twilight folds it's dusky mantle
on tomorrow's child.
Approaching night
hides the richness
of earth's vibrant day.
A full moon casts a
silver light
over the open bay,
gilding its dark water
It's translucence
weaves a slender thread
of golden light
Shining into our souls
to give us second sight
Then reposing Heaven
lulls our hearts to rest
in soft reverie's nest,
healing hurts of yesterday.
Lorena Johnson/Cami
Twilight folds it's dusky mantle
on tomorrow's child.
Approaching night
hides the richness
of earth's vibrant day.
A full moon casts a
silver light
over the open bay,
gilding its dark water
It's translucence
weaves a slender thread
of golden light
Shining into our souls
to give us second sight
Then reposing Heaven
lulls our hearts to rest
in soft reverie's nest,
healing hurts of yesterday.
Lorena Johnson/Cami
Reverie
Twilight folds it's dusky mantle
on tomorrow's child.
Approaching night
hides the richness
of earth's vibrant day.
A full moon casts a
silver light
over the open bay,
gilding its dark water
It's translucence
weaves a slender thread
of golden light
Shining into our souls
to give us second sight
Then reposing Heaven
lulls our hearts to rest
in soft reverie's nest,
healing hurts of yesterday.
Lorena Johnson/Cami
on tomorrow's child.
Approaching night
hides the richness
of earth's vibrant day.
A full moon casts a
silver light
over the open bay,
gilding its dark water
It's translucence
weaves a slender thread
of golden light
Shining into our souls
to give us second sight
Then reposing Heaven
lulls our hearts to rest
in soft reverie's nest,
healing hurts of yesterday.
Lorena Johnson/Cami
Sleep
Twilight folds its dusky mantle
on tomorrow's child.
Approaching night
hides the richness of
Earth's vibrant day.
A full moon casts a
silver light
over the open bay.
gilding its dark water.
Showers of transluscience
weaves such splenor
sibilent and bright.
So reposing Heaven
lulls our hearts to rest
in soft reverie's nest,
healing the hurts of yesterday.
on tomorrow's child.
Approaching night
hides the richness of
Earth's vibrant day.
A full moon casts a
silver light
over the open bay.
gilding its dark water.
Showers of transluscience
weaves such splenor
sibilent and bright.
So reposing Heaven
lulls our hearts to rest
in soft reverie's nest,
healing the hurts of yesterday.
Creation
The Creator reached down
through a fathomless abyss.
The act of motion
stirred the beginning of time.
It spread like ripples
on a still pond
when a pebble disturbs
its drowsy subconscious,
spiraling out, out, out
into rings, rings, and rings
of eternity.
Divine creativity
subduing will to love of form.
The Idea!
Infant of God!
Mind upon matter,
the design was born.
Conceived in thought,
destined to immortality.
Lorena Johnson/Cami
written at age 18
through a fathomless abyss.
The act of motion
stirred the beginning of time.
It spread like ripples
on a still pond
when a pebble disturbs
its drowsy subconscious,
spiraling out, out, out
into rings, rings, and rings
of eternity.
Divine creativity
subduing will to love of form.
The Idea!
Infant of God!
Mind upon matter,
the design was born.
Conceived in thought,
destined to immortality.
Lorena Johnson/Cami
written at age 18
Monday, April 25, 2011
See Me There
See Me There
See me there
Under a god's microscope?
So what? I have my own microscope!
Wonder who is viewing that God
through their microscope?
Where does it stop?
Looking through mirrors here
and guessing,
which one is me?
Or am I all of them?
Images of myself
in a fun house of mirrors?
See Me There
See Me There
See me there
Under a god's microscope?
So what? I have my own microscope!
Wonder who is viewing that God
through their microscope?
Where does it stop?
Looking through mirrors here
and guessing,
which one is me?
Or am I all of them?
Images of myself
in a fun house of mirrors?
See me there
Under a god's microscope?
So what? I have my own microscope!
Wonder who is viewing that God
through their microscope?
Where does it stop?
Looking through mirrors here
and guessing,
which one is me?
Or am I all of them?
Images of myself
in a fun house of mirrors?
Sunday, April 24, 2011
A Grain of Corn
A grain of corn
Though small and young you be
shall lie beneath
the rich dark earth to be
a formless body
buried there.
Rise from the grave
and shed that lifeless hull,
oh soul.
Bloom from the dust
of Ancient Earth
and grow
clothed in a robe of life
eternally.
Lord,
make me like a grain of corn.
Let your face shine through
the silver threads of rain
like sun,
and raise my soul again.
When in Death's silent reverie
I lie,
re-clothe my soul,
and let it never die.
Lorena Johnson
1954
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Love
Love knows no season,
No boundaries;
No self pride;
It harbors no ill will;
Encompasses all.
God is love.
To love like God,
We must put aside self involvement,
place our attention on others
And learn to be grateful,
Showing kindness in the face of
inhumanity,
Generosity in the face of stinginess,
and bear no malice,
Sacrificing even our very lives
For our loved ones and our country!
LorenaLila/Cami
No boundaries;
No self pride;
It harbors no ill will;
Encompasses all.
God is love.
To love like God,
We must put aside self involvement,
place our attention on others
And learn to be grateful,
Showing kindness in the face of
inhumanity,
Generosity in the face of stinginess,
and bear no malice,
Sacrificing even our very lives
For our loved ones and our country!
LorenaLila/Cami
Saturday, April 16, 2011
A bit more about my beliefs
My Beliefs
Spirit sets up plans for our schooling by giving us different scenarios to pass through, much as a child goes from one grade level to the next in his youth.
The big difference is, that we plan what is needed next for ourselves before entering into a given (life)
We either fail or flunk each test, till we finally learn. It's called Karma.
One can only hope that we build a lot more good karma than negative to keep us moving forward to another level.
When I speak of Spirit in this context, I'm speaking of soul who is overseeing our development. We do not have a soul, we are soul. Big difference there. Soul has us(the little self) the mind and all it's trappings.
There are so many layers to this self, that we must spend eternity uncovering the layers.
Once we reach a golden stage of development we become masters and spend the rest of that time teaching others and assisting the overall process even though we are still expanding on our own.
The horizon is always beyond. God, itself is expanding, and learning. We are in that image and part of that body. We are a unit of this great spirit much as a slice of cake is not the whole, but is still cake.
A bit more about my beliefs
My Beliefs
Spirit sets up plans for our schooling by giving us different scenarios to pass through, much as a child goes from one grade level to the next in his youth.
The big difference is, that we plan what is needed next for ourselves before entering into a given (life)
We either fail or flunk each test, till we finally learn. It's called Karma.
One can only hope that we build a lot more good karma than negative to keep us moving forward to another level.
When I speak of Spirit in this context, I'm speaking of soul who is overseeing our development. We do not have a soul, we are soul. Big difference there. Soul has us(the little self) the mind and all it's trappings.
There are so many layers to this self, that we must spend eternity uncovering the layers.
Once we reach a golden stage of development we become masters and spend the rest of that time teaching others and assisting the overall process even though we are still expanding on our own.
The horizon is always beyond. God, itself is expanding, and learning. We are in that image and part of that body. We are a unit of this great spirit much as a slice of cake is not the whole, but is still cake.
Spirit sets up plans for our schooling by giving us different scenarios to pass through, much as a child goes from one grade level to the next in his youth.
The big difference is, that we plan what is needed next for ourselves before entering into a given (life)
We either fail or flunk each test, till we finally learn. It's called Karma.
One can only hope that we build a lot more good karma than negative to keep us moving forward to another level.
When I speak of Spirit in this context, I'm speaking of soul who is overseeing our development. We do not have a soul, we are soul. Big difference there. Soul has us(the little self) the mind and all it's trappings.
There are so many layers to this self, that we must spend eternity uncovering the layers.
Once we reach a golden stage of development we become masters and spend the rest of that time teaching others and assisting the overall process even though we are still expanding on our own.
The horizon is always beyond. God, itself is expanding, and learning. We are in that image and part of that body. We are a unit of this great spirit much as a slice of cake is not the whole, but is still cake.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Taking Charge
I was feeling very guilty this week because I am stopping the Pink Lady routine. I have enough to do at home and other interests and have become aware that I am not doing a service to the community. It is only helping the for profit organization that is the corporation that owns the hospitals around Indiana.
I am paying them almost a hundred dollars per month with high interests to take care of a debt that was my co-pay from a hospital stay and ER expenses, etc.
Since Pink Lady is strictly a volunteer thing, the corporation is making money from our doing the work that they would have to pay someone to do otherwise.
When I was called a few weeks ago to set up April's schedule for my part I was informed that someone complained that I had used my cell phone at my desk. I had explained to them before that I kept my cell phone on because of my daughter who has seizures and multiple other problems and I needed to check on her while at my job.
I had to call in on the one day that I was scheduled because I had to hospitalize her that day for an emergency and she was there for 4 days very ill.
So, when I was told I had to put my phone away and not use it, I decided that I had more important things to do than to fill the pockets of the big Corporation by giving them free help.
Now I know this sounds selfish, but I am already paying them lots of money plus interest for at least 2 more years. To be insulted on top of that was a bit much.
Here I am, trying to be loving and kind, but there comes a time that you take stock and stop enabling some people.
Both my daughters that live here have been urging me to quit anyway, because it seems like that every time I had to be at the hospital something more urgent was needed at home.
I have to take Marjie to her appointments in another county often and when there was a conflict of which to do, I had to make arrangements to have someone else drive her there. So, I have made up my mind to let the Pink Lady thing go.
Selfish? Maybe. Human? Right on!
I have to laugh at myself with all my struggling over what to do, but now I think I have it down to a simple thing...................Quit the dumb volunteer job. LOL!
Monday, April 11, 2011
INto the stillness
I just told my friend Sandy that I am trying harder to quiet the mind so I can go into the stillness. The mind loves to chatter away at us and is hard to get it to hush so we can go into the stillness and listen to the voice of spirit.
The few times I get there for even a moment, the stillness is so loud, it roars within my very depths. Spirit has so much to say and I am so lame at interpreting its language because I've not availed myself to the inner voice for too long.
As we grow old we become more aware of the need to get to that place and believe me, I am there now.
Stripped bare of illusion, I find that all that really matters is love. It is the only lasting, eternal thing we truly have.
I sit in silence and sing the Hu, calling on God to speak into that silence. It is evident that all that needs to be done is just to listen until the sound surrounds me with its love and light.
Sitting is very difficult for me, but I know that I must learn and do it with humility which isn't my strong point.
If the love of God can fill me up enough, maybe I can pass it along to my fellow beings. I now know that that is my only reason for being. To lend a hand to others who are struggling too.
Love you all and hope I can learn to convey that more clearly in the coming, troubled times.
Hugs!
Lorena/Cami
The few times I get there for even a moment, the stillness is so loud, it roars within my very depths. Spirit has so much to say and I am so lame at interpreting its language because I've not availed myself to the inner voice for too long.
As we grow old we become more aware of the need to get to that place and believe me, I am there now.
Stripped bare of illusion, I find that all that really matters is love. It is the only lasting, eternal thing we truly have.
I sit in silence and sing the Hu, calling on God to speak into that silence. It is evident that all that needs to be done is just to listen until the sound surrounds me with its love and light.
Sitting is very difficult for me, but I know that I must learn and do it with humility which isn't my strong point.
If the love of God can fill me up enough, maybe I can pass it along to my fellow beings. I now know that that is my only reason for being. To lend a hand to others who are struggling too.
Love you all and hope I can learn to convey that more clearly in the coming, troubled times.
Hugs!
Lorena/Cami
Monday, April 4, 2011
Beyond Illusion
Somewhere beyond space,
Beyond time,
Beyond what we perceive,
Behind, the Illusion of reality
lies the full soul
watching this thing we call Now!
The heart of all is there,
Dreaming.
Dreaming of what is,
and what is yet unformed.
It moves from idea,
to idea
As the concept grows
and educates spirit.
This great illusion experienced
by soul, is it's teacher.
As it turns its attention
from one setting to another,
It breathes life into each new
film.
When one story ends
a new one begins.
Take a seat,
get some popcorn
and enjoy the movie!
Lorena/Cani 2007
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Was it a Hacker?
I now beleive it must have been a hacker that sent the ugly application. It would make me happy to find that is what is was.
If any of you get an application that asks, "Does anyone think (your name) would back stab you?," then that would confirm it is a hacker so please let everyone know will you?
Thanks to everyone.
Hugs,
Cami
If any of you get an application that asks, "Does anyone think (your name) would back stab you?," then that would confirm it is a hacker so please let everyone know will you?
Thanks to everyone.
Hugs,
Cami
Signs and warnings
In my religion we have what we called the Golden Tongued Wisdom. it is little hints dropped by Holy Spirit to alert you to an event about to happen or something you just need to be aware of when you need to take stock of yourself.
It could be a glaring hint or a subtle hint. I often get a phone ringing just before waking in the dream state that is so real I get up to answer it because it wakes me up. Sometimes I will hear my name and think it is my daughter or something like that. It always becomes clear after a day or two what it was meant to alert in me.
This past week I had the sign of the black birds which always tells me of a death imminent and usually is not someone in the immediate family or always extremely close, but just the same is to get me ready for the news. Also, I heard someone call my name and the next time my phone was ringing, all this was just before totally waking except the birds which were real.
One of the choir members died after seeing the gathering of the black birds and I attended his funeral Saturday. Two days ago the lady that makes out the Pink Lady schedule called to set up April's schedule with me. She let me know that there had been a compliant that I used my cell phone during the time I was at my post. I had let everyone know that I had to call home and check on my daughter. I picked a time when there was no business going on and assumed it would be okay. I don't know why someone would do this and was very angry that the person didn't say something to me face to face first. I told the scheduler that after all, we are volunteers and not being paid. I see other Pink Ladies just hanging around gabbing all the time to each other and I don't leave my post accept to go to the BR or get a drink and only if it is very slow. I have to call the person at the info desk to come sit in my place and often she/he is out roaming and I have to wait.
Also, the clerks that are in front of me interviewing people to send to thier appointments can be heard asking information of the patients and sometimes you can hear the answers. No one questions their professionalism. I recited all this to her and she said she never heard them talking. UH! I was even angrier by that time. I know that anger is not good and could only get me worse Karma, so I tried to calm down until she told me to just leave my cell phone in my desk and turn it off.
Was I wrong to be upset? Probably!
Then a couple of days ago, someone posted a negative thing about me on Face Book. It really shook me up. Thank goodness I didn't respond and I saw that no comments were made to it.
I think I need to re-examine my life and some of my ways and what is bringing about this negative Karma.
I know I am sometimes quite opinionated, especially on politics, so maybe I need to dial back a bit and realize we are all entitled to our opinions. I am trying to learn to be more loving to everyone and hope that no one has been hurt by anything I say or do. If so, please forgive me. I shall try even harder in the near future.
Sincerely,
Cami
It could be a glaring hint or a subtle hint. I often get a phone ringing just before waking in the dream state that is so real I get up to answer it because it wakes me up. Sometimes I will hear my name and think it is my daughter or something like that. It always becomes clear after a day or two what it was meant to alert in me.
This past week I had the sign of the black birds which always tells me of a death imminent and usually is not someone in the immediate family or always extremely close, but just the same is to get me ready for the news. Also, I heard someone call my name and the next time my phone was ringing, all this was just before totally waking except the birds which were real.
One of the choir members died after seeing the gathering of the black birds and I attended his funeral Saturday. Two days ago the lady that makes out the Pink Lady schedule called to set up April's schedule with me. She let me know that there had been a compliant that I used my cell phone during the time I was at my post. I had let everyone know that I had to call home and check on my daughter. I picked a time when there was no business going on and assumed it would be okay. I don't know why someone would do this and was very angry that the person didn't say something to me face to face first. I told the scheduler that after all, we are volunteers and not being paid. I see other Pink Ladies just hanging around gabbing all the time to each other and I don't leave my post accept to go to the BR or get a drink and only if it is very slow. I have to call the person at the info desk to come sit in my place and often she/he is out roaming and I have to wait.
Also, the clerks that are in front of me interviewing people to send to thier appointments can be heard asking information of the patients and sometimes you can hear the answers. No one questions their professionalism. I recited all this to her and she said she never heard them talking. UH! I was even angrier by that time. I know that anger is not good and could only get me worse Karma, so I tried to calm down until she told me to just leave my cell phone in my desk and turn it off.
Was I wrong to be upset? Probably!
Then a couple of days ago, someone posted a negative thing about me on Face Book. It really shook me up. Thank goodness I didn't respond and I saw that no comments were made to it.
I think I need to re-examine my life and some of my ways and what is bringing about this negative Karma.
I know I am sometimes quite opinionated, especially on politics, so maybe I need to dial back a bit and realize we are all entitled to our opinions. I am trying to learn to be more loving to everyone and hope that no one has been hurt by anything I say or do. If so, please forgive me. I shall try even harder in the near future.
Sincerely,
Cami
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Singing the Hu
I hope you can open this from here. Susan Allen posted it on FB
and I love the composition so much I thought I 'd share it in Here.
and I love the composition so much I thought I 'd share it in Here.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
What a day
Had to go to a funeral today. The choir sang for a long time member who, at 88, has passed away and was so dear to us all.
He had just been diagnosed with an aggressive brain tumor last summer, so at his age I think he is in a better place now.
They played a recording of him doing the Panis Angelicus, which I had done with him as a duet. It was another lovely soprano signing it with him this time and not a dry eye in the crowd. Then the cantor did a religious song to the tune of Danny boy. The choir did John Stainer's , God So Loved The World.
All in all it was beautiful tribute to a wonderful man.
He had just been diagnosed with an aggressive brain tumor last summer, so at his age I think he is in a better place now.
They played a recording of him doing the Panis Angelicus, which I had done with him as a duet. It was another lovely soprano signing it with him this time and not a dry eye in the crowd. Then the cantor did a religious song to the tune of Danny boy. The choir did John Stainer's , God So Loved The World.
All in all it was beautiful tribute to a wonderful man.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Time
I posted this in PS(now SivlerSingles) and it was appropriate for what is going on in my life at the present (time). Better days are ahead and Marjie was well enough to drive to the pharmacy and Dollar General and back home. Life is good. Here is the poem.
Time Is An Illusion
Time is an illusion;
A passing fantasy.
A tower of glistening icon
standing in the sun,
casting a drifting shadow
before the day is done.
It leaves no reflection
for the impotent night
where the dreamer takes flight
and time ceases to be.
Lorena/Cami
Time Is An Illusion
Time is an illusion;
A passing fantasy.
A tower of glistening icon
standing in the sun,
casting a drifting shadow
before the day is done.
It leaves no reflection
for the impotent night
where the dreamer takes flight
and time ceases to be.
Lorena/Cami
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Marjie is better today
It was a rough night last night, but we weathered it through and when she finally fell asleep, she slept through the night and is still sleeping. The vomiting has quieted down and now to get her to eat.
She did eat a few bites last night and then took a sleeping pill. She woke up and forgot she had taken it an took another one which is allowed, but with this particular pill, if she takes another one, it causes her to hallucinate and sleep walk. it took hours to get her to ly back down and fall asleep. I would just get her down and go to do something else and she was up rambling again and talking nonsense.
Today we are going to set up a routine and I am going to have to supervise her closely for awhile.
Thank you all for your concern. I think the worst is over. Hugs to everyone.
She did eat a few bites last night and then took a sleeping pill. She woke up and forgot she had taken it an took another one which is allowed, but with this particular pill, if she takes another one, it causes her to hallucinate and sleep walk. it took hours to get her to ly back down and fall asleep. I would just get her down and go to do something else and she was up rambling again and talking nonsense.
Today we are going to set up a routine and I am going to have to supervise her closely for awhile.
Thank you all for your concern. I think the worst is over. Hugs to everyone.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
udate on Marjie
she is home but may be going back. Read my comment on the post before this one and it will explain.
Marjie
She is still in the hospital. They haven't been able to stop the nausea and vomitng yet. They are going to try Scopalomine now. Medicare wants here out of there and if they send her home like this, she will just have to go back when she dehydrates again or has a major Seizure because she can't hold her medicines down.
I am stumped at what to do now. :(
I am stumped at what to do now. :(
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Update
Marjie is still in the hospital. The Pa who visited her early this morning said: " We have to get you out of here". She has yet to hear from anyone again on this. She is still throwing up and running fever and in lots of pain. No I ask You! Breathe Lorena.................breathe.................................
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Marjie
My little Marjie is in the hospital for IV therapy. She will probably only be in over night.
There is a really bad stomach flu going around here and between all her illnesses, meds and stuff this flu hit her hard. She started vomiting yesterday morning and did it sometimes every five minutes all day and all last night.
Since she couldn't keep any pills down, with all her pain meds and seizure meds she couldn't keep down, she went into withdrawals which in turn made her throw up worse. Now she is starting a Migraine on top of all that.
The doctor opted to admit her and give her her meds IV in order to get her back in balance. She will be okay, but Mom is a bit stressed.
At least the sun is shinning today and the weather is warmer. Yipeeeeeeeeee! Taking a positive slant on this and hoping for a really good weekend.
Adios for now.
Cami
There is a really bad stomach flu going around here and between all her illnesses, meds and stuff this flu hit her hard. She started vomiting yesterday morning and did it sometimes every five minutes all day and all last night.
Since she couldn't keep any pills down, with all her pain meds and seizure meds she couldn't keep down, she went into withdrawals which in turn made her throw up worse. Now she is starting a Migraine on top of all that.
The doctor opted to admit her and give her her meds IV in order to get her back in balance. She will be okay, but Mom is a bit stressed.
At least the sun is shinning today and the weather is warmer. Yipeeeeeeeeee! Taking a positive slant on this and hoping for a really good weekend.
Adios for now.
Cami
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Dogs are the best.
I didn't know what I was doing when I posted the animals below. I forgot to title it and write about it in the same post. Hope you enjoy them. Sorry, Tinker is no longer with us, but his pic is so cute I had to post it anyway.
A rainy day
It is a gloomy day in Peru, In. today. Chilly and rainy. You would think it was April already. Still, I have yet to see any blossoms, or signs of spring except the birds. I long for the mountains. Living in the west for so long, I had access to all the high Rocky Mountain places to go in the summer. Glacier National, Yellow Stone Park, the High Rockies in Utah, Flaming Gorge, Wind River Canyon in Wyoming, Grand Tetons, etc., etc., etc.
Indian is a lovely area for farming though and very green in the spring, summer and early fall.
I guess I should be grateful for having shelter and enough to eat, and I truly am. I just miss seeing all those lovely places. Maybe I will go there in my imagination.
Here is a poem I wrote a couple of years ago that sort of satisfies some of that longing.
Lorena Johnson/Cami
Indian is a lovely area for farming though and very green in the spring, summer and early fall.
I guess I should be grateful for having shelter and enough to eat, and I truly am. I just miss seeing all those lovely places. Maybe I will go there in my imagination.
Here is a poem I wrote a couple of years ago that sort of satisfies some of that longing.
I STOOD IN A QUIET FOREST
I stood in a quiet forest
surrounded by ancient trees.
I stood on a windy hill
kissed by the fragrant breeze.
I stood on a new formed planet
and gazed at a distant star.
The Milky Way swept through me
as I traveled Oh! so far.
I sat in contemplation
in the silence of my room.
went into the stillness
of a dark, empty tomb.
A scene unfolded clearly
of a vast, brooding sea.
The voice of God called gently
somewhere inside of me.
Its music filled my being,
opened up my heart.
Pieced the veil of illusion,
Thrust the curtain apart.
I floated calmly for awhile
there on the ocean waves
as far as the eye could see.
It was an endless ocean.
The Ocean of Love and Mercy.
I stood in a quiet forest
surrounded by ancient trees.
I stood on a windy hill
kissed by the fragrant breeze.
I stood on a new formed planet
and gazed at a distant star.
The Milky Way swept through me
as I traveled Oh! so far.
I sat in contemplation
in the silence of my room.
went into the stillness
of a dark, empty tomb.
A scene unfolded clearly
of a vast, brooding sea.
The voice of God called gently
somewhere inside of me.
Its music filled my being,
opened up my heart.
Pieced the veil of illusion,
Thrust the curtain apart.
I floated calmly for awhile
there on the ocean waves
as far as the eye could see.
It was an endless ocean.
The Ocean of Love and Mercy.
Lorena Johnson/Cami
Monday, March 14, 2011
Monday, Monday! Argh!
Here it is again; Monday! We survived the weekend of lollygagging around. Took Marjie and the dogs to Marion, IN. for Marjie's pain management therapy and the dogs were so well behaved.
It was easy to take just 2 dogs. I took them for a walk while Marjie was in the clinic. The very first thing Tigger did was walk over to a grassy spot and poop all over the place. Thank God I had a plastic bag with me for such occasions and there was a dumpster handy. They slept so good last night. Yeah!
We were not able to stop at our little country, Amish grocery market on the way home like usual because it was Sunday. Dang! I love that store so much.
They have the most unusual things in there. I can buy my chick peas for Humus and steel cut oats for a quarter of the price in any other store. They also have canned meat that is wonderful.
The beef is just like a roast. I use it with a little homemade gravy over mashed potatoes and it tastes like I cooked the meat at home. One large can lasts Marjie and I for several meals.
The pork I use to make Chile Verde with and works so well.
I have developed my own recipes for Humus and it is great to find the chick peas so inexpensive.
If you cook them long enough to get them really tender and liquefy them in a blender, you can add any flavors you want. I always put a bit of Tahini in it and then start adding my flavors. It makes great dip and is one of the most nutritious food you can eat according to Dr. Oz. Delicious too. Yum!
Today we have to take all our empty cans, milk bottles, coke bottles, papers, card board and empty glass containers to the recycling place. it sure saves a lot on the amount of garbage that the city has to pick up and you feel like you are helping the environment.
Hope everyone has a great week. Spring is almost here! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
It was easy to take just 2 dogs. I took them for a walk while Marjie was in the clinic. The very first thing Tigger did was walk over to a grassy spot and poop all over the place. Thank God I had a plastic bag with me for such occasions and there was a dumpster handy. They slept so good last night. Yeah!
We were not able to stop at our little country, Amish grocery market on the way home like usual because it was Sunday. Dang! I love that store so much.
They have the most unusual things in there. I can buy my chick peas for Humus and steel cut oats for a quarter of the price in any other store. They also have canned meat that is wonderful.
The beef is just like a roast. I use it with a little homemade gravy over mashed potatoes and it tastes like I cooked the meat at home. One large can lasts Marjie and I for several meals.
The pork I use to make Chile Verde with and works so well.
I have developed my own recipes for Humus and it is great to find the chick peas so inexpensive.
If you cook them long enough to get them really tender and liquefy them in a blender, you can add any flavors you want. I always put a bit of Tahini in it and then start adding my flavors. It makes great dip and is one of the most nutritious food you can eat according to Dr. Oz. Delicious too. Yum!
Today we have to take all our empty cans, milk bottles, coke bottles, papers, card board and empty glass containers to the recycling place. it sure saves a lot on the amount of garbage that the city has to pick up and you feel like you are helping the environment.
Hope everyone has a great week. Spring is almost here! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Singing the Hu
I Stand On The Bright Shores
I stand on the bright shores of Sach Khand,
My heart in my hand
and I'm offering it to you
as I'm singing the HU!
I stand in the Golden Heart
where light and sound surround
Singing the Hu!
Singing the Hu!
You can smell the fragrance
of sandal wood and roses.
The masters are singing it too.
We are all singing the Hu!
The Sugmad smiles as his love song fills the void.
Throughout every valley and plane
the voices are singing its name.
Everything is singing the Hu
Singing the Hu!
Love is singing the HU!
Lorena Johnson
Singing the Hu
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Please contribute your talents here.
I would love to encourage all of you to post your writings, poems, articles, etc. If I can find out how to do it I would love to see your pictures, art, photos too. I will probably include a poem or song now and then, but need to have your talent displayed too. If you are willing I would love to have anything you would like to post.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
A poem written by Susan Allen
I love this poem and it is Susan all over. I want to share it with you and have her permission. It says so very much about what spirituality does for you. I've known Susan for about 17 years when we met in Eckankar. She has been my very best friend since then.
She has the most fantastic Contralto voice you've about ever heard and now her poetry is developing at a very fast rate.
Susan is the one that can sing my wind song and make people cry over it. I will have to get it put on here sometime so you can hear her if it's possible.
Here is her Poem.
She has the most fantastic Contralto voice you've about ever heard and now her poetry is developing at a very fast rate.
Susan is the one that can sing my wind song and make people cry over it. I will have to get it put on here sometime so you can hear her if it's possible.
Here is her Poem.
| Susan Allen |
I am drinking
I am drinking
Drinking as much as I can
Like woman who can't get enough
I am Drinking
Yet, I am drinking
Drinking not for drowning my sorrows
For that is the past's concern
I welcome the past to this drinking pool
Drinking not for the festive shoring up
For the illusion is only temporary joy
Which is here already within me
I am drinking for Love unbridled
in your care and love for me
I am drinking in the Truth
For Truth can free Soul's flight
I am drinking in Love's knowing
For only through you am I shown
the straightest beam of Light
where no time exists
Where divine Being abounds only
I hear you
Your Sound is with me now
Never to leave
These bones know only comfort
It is not comfort that I am driven by
Does the lesson come with comfort?
It comes along because I am in it
The Sound is calling me
It is divine discontent and wanting
then coming to that pinnacle point
that let's me drink deeper from the next pool of Divine Love.
You know my heart's love for you
knows the endless pool of eternity.
Heart knows Soul's path
and it is your presence I'll ask for
till eternity
It is your love that is the connecting pool
of which my Soul drinks
Could I be holier to drink?
My only need is to recognize Soul that I am
now through your love
Love IS Everything
Susan Allen February 2011
Drinking as much as I can
Like woman who can't get enough
I am Drinking
Yet, I am drinking
Drinking not for drowning my sorrows
For that is the past's concern
I welcome the past to this drinking pool
Drinking not for the festive shoring up
For the illusion is only temporary joy
Which is here already within me
I am drinking for Love unbridled
in your care and love for me
I am drinking in the Truth
For Truth can free Soul's flight
I am drinking in Love's knowing
For only through you am I shown
the straightest beam of Light
where no time exists
Where divine Being abounds only
I hear you
Your Sound is with me now
Never to leave
These bones know only comfort
It is not comfort that I am driven by
Does the lesson come with comfort?
It comes along because I am in it
The Sound is calling me
It is divine discontent and wanting
then coming to that pinnacle point
that let's me drink deeper from the next pool of Divine Love.
You know my heart's love for you
knows the endless pool of eternity.
Heart knows Soul's path
and it is your presence I'll ask for
till eternity
It is your love that is the connecting pool
of which my Soul drinks
Could I be holier to drink?
My only need is to recognize Soul that I am
now through your love
Love IS Everything
Susan Allen February 2011
Speaking about the sound of Hu!
My friend Susan Allen and I are both in Eckankar which is the religion of light and sound. Our man mantra is simply singing the Hu pronounced like the man's name, Hugh!
It is believed that the singing of this word balances the energies around us. Hu is the most ancient name known to mankind. There are still traces of the word in African legends and throughout the Middle East.
In Eckankar it is used as a love song to God. Our name for God is Sugmad. There are many others I am sure. The name God is a very recent name attached to that being.
We believe in reincarnation, Masters that help us(some would call them angels), and we believe in loving all life and having reverence for it. We strive to look at each person we meet as our self and our self as a spark off of God. We are literally God's offspring.
We also believe anything you can think is real. Scientists have proved that each thought is a molecule that goes out from us as it is thought. It is not too much of a leap to think that we create things literally with our thoughts.
Be very careful what you think.
I believe many religions have expressed something to the effect that as a man thinks, so is he.
Now no one is perfect and we are always striving for these goals, but I find myself falling far short of them daily. The trick is to keep placing one foot in front of the other and keep on trucking.
Looking back is fruitless and so is harboring guilt. Move on and try harder to get better.
Love is the all. Anything else is false. Love does not produce hate, anger, hostility, etc. Love exhibits kindness and kindness begets love in eternal rounds.
I love all of you and hope you can grow in love for all life.
Your friend,
Lorena/Cami
It is believed that the singing of this word balances the energies around us. Hu is the most ancient name known to mankind. There are still traces of the word in African legends and throughout the Middle East.
In Eckankar it is used as a love song to God. Our name for God is Sugmad. There are many others I am sure. The name God is a very recent name attached to that being.
We believe in reincarnation, Masters that help us(some would call them angels), and we believe in loving all life and having reverence for it. We strive to look at each person we meet as our self and our self as a spark off of God. We are literally God's offspring.
We also believe anything you can think is real. Scientists have proved that each thought is a molecule that goes out from us as it is thought. It is not too much of a leap to think that we create things literally with our thoughts.
Be very careful what you think.
I believe many religions have expressed something to the effect that as a man thinks, so is he.
Now no one is perfect and we are always striving for these goals, but I find myself falling far short of them daily. The trick is to keep placing one foot in front of the other and keep on trucking.
Looking back is fruitless and so is harboring guilt. Move on and try harder to get better.
Love is the all. Anything else is false. Love does not produce hate, anger, hostility, etc. Love exhibits kindness and kindness begets love in eternal rounds.
I love all of you and hope you can grow in love for all life.
Your friend,
Lorena/Cami
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
How my life has changed this year
Many of us go year to year and never ponder if we have changed. Not me. This has been a harsh, but learning year and I am grateful to the Universe for those hard won lessons.
This week my daughter Marjie noted that my mouth was sagging slightly on the left side. I had noticed it a couple of weeks ago, but it was so slight I thought it was only old age and sleeping on that side. Since the eye wasn't drooping or no speech involvement and not left sided weakness, I just discounted it.
Marjie wasn't to be put off, so off to the doctor we went. Surprise, I have a very mild case of Bell's Palsy. Argh! Even though I am a nurse, I wasn't as familiar with all the signs and symptoms ofthis disorder as I should have been because I've not ever had any patients with it.
My youngest daughter has had it twice, but her case was so severe that I didn't connect the dots. Shame on me.
One of the many little lessons I will have gone through in this past year and am grateful it isn't a severe one. I shall be pondering what the lesson is trying to teach me about my spirituality. Is it a wake up call of some sort, or just a gentle nudge to wake me up and get me going again?
I have had about every conceivable test this past year for more serious stuff which never amounted to anything but large medical bills, so this is just a blip in my ongoing life.
Maybe the drooping mouth is a call to watch my sometimes acid remarks?? LOL!
What do you think?
Lorean/Cami
This week my daughter Marjie noted that my mouth was sagging slightly on the left side. I had noticed it a couple of weeks ago, but it was so slight I thought it was only old age and sleeping on that side. Since the eye wasn't drooping or no speech involvement and not left sided weakness, I just discounted it.
Marjie wasn't to be put off, so off to the doctor we went. Surprise, I have a very mild case of Bell's Palsy. Argh! Even though I am a nurse, I wasn't as familiar with all the signs and symptoms ofthis disorder as I should have been because I've not ever had any patients with it.
My youngest daughter has had it twice, but her case was so severe that I didn't connect the dots. Shame on me.
One of the many little lessons I will have gone through in this past year and am grateful it isn't a severe one. I shall be pondering what the lesson is trying to teach me about my spirituality. Is it a wake up call of some sort, or just a gentle nudge to wake me up and get me going again?
I have had about every conceivable test this past year for more serious stuff which never amounted to anything but large medical bills, so this is just a blip in my ongoing life.
Maybe the drooping mouth is a call to watch my sometimes acid remarks?? LOL!
What do you think?
Lorean/Cami
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